There is a feeling that writing and creating music gives me sometimes; I think this feeling is the reason that I do it. The feeling is big and hard to describe; sometimes it’s a kind of ecstacy, sometimes a kind of peace, and sometimes a deep deep joy that comes with bringing something that you genuinely love out of nothing.
I love when my body is fully warmed up, my fingers, my voice; everything else disappears and I am able to slip, more and more deeply, into the rabbit hole of my own expression.
It is impossible to overstate the effect that music has had on my life. It’s too big. If I was forced to soundbite it I would say that: the practice of becoming a better musician has taught me more about life and how to live it than anything else.
The import of what I am doing is becoming clearer and clearer to me. I am embracing the fact that I have a massive opportunity in the next 4 months. I have cleared the schedule of my life. I literally have no other task than: doing this thing that I love, and trying to make the best thing I can make. I do not take for granted that this state of affairs will continue indefinitely. This means there is pressure; but it is a good pressure. There doesn’t seem to be any negative effects, I am just able to focus more, work longer and be more single-minded. I am sleeping less.
This goes hand in hand with the fact that: I have fallen deeply in love with these pieces of music and want to do my best by them. The thought of recording any version of them which is not the absolute highest and best possible seems like the grossest waste. They deserve better. They deserve everything I can give.
There are a lot of things that I am missing, sacrifices that have to be made, things that I cannot afford to focus on. There are deficiency needs that could hurt me long term, but I wouldn’t trade anything for this chance, this one chance to make this thing. The isolation is wearing, but ultimately necessary.
To make art, you have to be expert at navigating inward. I need to be alone to do this. Each day is a little journey, unique in it’s pitfalls and it’s treasures. You cannot dial it in, there is no set formula. You must become an expert at navigating new territory. Each day I go hunting, each day I bring something back.
At the moment, the record is sounding very stripped down. It is mostly solo voice and guitar, a little piano; the pieces are strong enough by themselves, they don’t need excessive adornment, they carry themselves well, they are very pure. They don’t sound like anyone but me.
I cannot wait to hear the record. I cannot wait to share these pieces with you. I am so excited, I am like a little kid 4 months before Christmas, already crazy on sugar, looking forward to seeing Santa. There are no words for it.
Soon. Soon. Soon.
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